Today… Oh today… Where shall I begin? You sucked. I’m pretty sure you were trying to test my patience. Well guess what… you won. Don’t get too excited… You haven’t defeated me! Tomorrow will be bigger and better… It just has to be.
I was faced with a screaming, clingy infant cutting 3 teeth all at once.
I was also faced with a toddler who fell down on her bum, some how hurt her knee in the process; After all that went down… the world began to end as she knew it. She couldn’t walk. She needed her boo-boo pack. She cried and cried and cried. Not to worry though by bedtime… she was fine.
Today I felt nothing more than a failure of a mother. I tried to be calm, patient and there for my children. I tried to be their security blanket and punching bag. I tried to be everything, but nothing worked.
You have no idea what that did to me. I couldn’t take away their hurt; fix their boo-boos. I couldn’t make them smile. I failed today… or at least I feel that I did.
The children are now in bed. The hubby has run out to the store. I’m snuggled up on the couch with a blanket and latte. Watching TV shows full of teen angst (ahem… 90210) and had a good little cry.
I’m so over today. Today sucked. It really did. Tomorrow will be better. Right?!