Today has been one of those days… I feel like a complete Mommy failure… =( JMK currently has taken Lil Miss C upstairs to give her a bath, and give me a break… and instead of using my break wisely – I’m sitting here in tears.
Early last week, Lil Miss C started with this habit of waking up every hour to hour and a half for feedings. By Wednesday things had become a little more back to routine, and she graced us with 5 hours straight of sleep. Well, let me be the first to say that was just a tease and WAY too good to be true. For the past few nights now Lil Miss C has been waking up in the wee hours of the night for feedings, and then deciding it is time to party. Last night was the icing on the cake when she decided to wake up at 2AM. Yep, you read that right… 2 friggin’ AM. She wasn’t fussy or anything… she just wanted to be nursed, held and played with. If I managed to get her back to sleep she would wake up within the half hour of going down. Needless to say I am trying to function on 3 hours of sleep. I thought for sure this afternoon that I’d be able to get her down for a nap, so that I could rest… But yea that didn’t happen. She was extremely fussy this afternoon. I tried rocking her, taking her for a walk, putting her in her swing/bouncer, singing to her… you name it – I tried it… and nothing made her happy at all. I’m soooo exhausted and I feel like a zombie… There is no better way to describe it.
I hate seeing Lil Miss C cry, and the fact that there was nothing I could do to prevent that today made me feel like the worst mother of all time.
Like I said, today was just one of those days! Mommyhood is definately hard, but such a blessing in itself. I know odds are tomorrow will be a better day… it just doesn’t feel that way right now.
Vent over. *yawns*