I hesitated about actually sitting down and writing this post. I’m generally not one to delve into certain particulars pertinent to my personal life. However, I have something bothering me and I really just need to get it off my chest.

Here goes nothing…

Gulp.


My husband and I are currently trying to conceive our 3rd and  (maybe) final baby. I made a promise to myself going into this that I wasn’t going to wear my heart on my sleeve and that I wasn’t going to get all tangled into the emotions. It was all just meant to be a go with the flow approach…

And then…


Months just started passing by. One after the other. Nothing is happening. My cycles are a mess. It’s all just starting to catch up to me. What if something’s wrong with me?

None of my trying to conceive journeys have ever come easy to me. None of them. I thought this time around it might be different. Maybe I’d finally get to be the lucky one who just wound up pregnant in one shot. No dice.

I thought for sure this month was my month. I even tested. I was for sure I was pregnant until I had that big fat negative glaring back at me.

Here we go… entering are 6th month of TTC. Will this month be our month? I guess…. time will only tell.

Looking on the bright side… it looks like I’ll get to enjoy some celebratory drinks when I move next week.

1 Comment on If Only It Came Easy…

  1. Shayna
    July 23, 2012 at 10:19 pm (5 years ago)

    Ahh I remember the disappointment each time when I thought for sure we were pregnant and weren’t. I’ll admit we were very lucky with our first (and only) despite being very close to 40 when we started (I was pretty worried about that).

    Wishing you all the best in this new journey!

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