You go on about your life. You’re content with your marriage… job… life sans kids… newborn… little family. Whatever your situation may be. When out of no where it hits you. You suddenly notice every pregnant belly. All little things cute. Babies everywhere. You’ve been struck by baby fever.
Shortly after Cadence joined our family, my husband had been all about jumping back on the baby making bandwagon. I thought he was off his rocker. I wanted no part of it. I didn’t realize how much I wanted another baby until surprise I found out I was pregnant in January 2010 and lost the baby shortly before the second trimester.
In June 2010, I found out I was pregnant with Cameron. After his birth in February, things were quite rocky for me emotionally. I’ve battled with postpartum depression. Cameron was not a baby that liked to sleep. He was an all-night nurser and all-day crier. He suffered from reflux and colic. It just was not an easy time. Things have since vastly improved, and Cameron is now such a happy baby.
For the longest time after Cameron was born, I swore up and down that we would not try for another baby until Cadence was in kindergarten… if at all.
I’m now beginning to second guess myself.
Baby fever has struck again.
I feel like everyone around me is pregnant. Everywhere I turn there is a beautiful belly and a glowing mama to be. It always makes me smile as I live vicariously for the moment through them, and subtly place my hand upon my stomach.
There’s no doubt in my mind that I want another baby. The question is when. While I have been plagued with the fever, I’m also very content with my little family right now. We have a lot planned out over the next year, so really another baby doesn’t fit into the scheme of things. For now I’ll continue on living vicariously, and maybe… just maybe… one day!